@simply_akay4786: I cremated my son because I knew I wouldn’t survive having to leave him in the ground. I knew myself. I knew that if Thomas were buried somewhere, knowing his body was right beneath my feet, I would never want to leave that grave. I would have wanted to dig through the earth with my bare hands just to get to him, just to hold my baby one more time. I know that may sound unbearable or even irrational to someone who has never lost a child. But grief like this isn’t rational. A mother spends her child’s entire life protecting them, reaching for them, holding them when they hurt. Then suddenly you’re expected to walk away while your child remains behind. I couldn’t do that. So I chose cremation. Not because I wanted to let him go, but because I knew I couldn’t. I needed to be able to keep him close to me. I needed to know there would never be a place in the ground calling me back because my son was underneath it. I needed to be able to take my boy wherever life takes me/us. It was one of the most devastating decisions I have ever had to make, but it was the decision I knew I could live with. And unless you’ve had to decide what to do with the body of the child you gave birth to, loved, raised, and would have given your own life for, it may be impossible to fully understand. #tkforever16💕 #childloss #grievingmom No parent EVER should have to make this decision and there isn’t a right or wrong choice here, it’s a decision we never should have had to make. In a cemetery or in an urn, it’s the worlds worst feeling and pain that I wouldn’t wish on anyone.

Akay

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Wednesday 16 September 2026 01:17:08 GMT