XI4N_ :
yung sobrang dami mo nang family problems, at acadamic pressures tas yung pinag kukuhanan mo pa ng lakas iniwan ka, mapapasabi ka nalang talaga na "kanino nako kakampi?" or "may kakampi pa ba ko?" at "kanino pako kakampi?" mabigat sa pakiramdam to the point na nag b-breakdown kana gabi gabi thinking that you're slowly giving up, and always blaming yourself for the things na di naman ikaw may kasalanan dahil lang nasaktan yung feelings ng taong importante sayo, and malalaman mong mabigat na yung nararamdaman mo pag kay god kana lumapit at umiiyak ka habang nag bebeg sakanya na alisin lahat ng hinanakit, tampo, bigat, pressure, anxiety, panic attack, overthinking na nararamdaman mo, and it's hard to hide all your feelings behind the smile that everyone sees, it's hard to hide all the pain when you can't handle anymore, it's hard to fight when you already lose, it's hard to even try because all of them will judge you for not being good, it's hard na gabi gabi iiyak ka habang iniisip kung kaya mo pa ba or kung may matatapos pa ba lahat ng problema mo, habang nilalabanan yung mga anxiety, panic attack, overthinking na ikaw lang magisa, yung 3 na ng madaling araw tapos bigla bigla ka nalang aatakihin ng rumaragasang lungkot sabay all those past memories and all those traumas cameback flashing back and you can't do anything but to accept and fight all those emotions by yourself, to fight alone, especially when you're a sensitive, soft hearted because of the traumas that will hunt you forever, being the child who has no kakampi sa bahay ay sya rin yung madalas na avoidant, i hope this kind of pain stop hunting me, I'm tired of this I'm tired fighting my own I'm tired na walang kakampi, yung uuwi ka sa bahay pagod na pagod tapos pag didiskitahan ka pa ng mga tao sa bahay nyo without knowing that you're struggling with your mental health and with your anxiety, tapos masasabihan ka nalang na tamad, but you're just tired just like them, it's hard when you have no one to tell everything that's been happening to you lately, and then you started to think that your life was meaningless because no one sees your struggles, and how your mental health is going through.
2026-09-19 08:36:41