RED :
They said move on, they said it's okay because it was for the better of both of us, they said.. focus on myself.
But how can I do that?, it was easy for them to say it, but it was hard for me to accept, move forward and let it all go. Letting you go was not my easiest choice. I found myself crying every night, I found myself imagining scenarios where we're okay, blissful and where we can talk/open up to one another's feelings; I found myself longing for you even though I was the one who let go, I found myself laying in bed wondering if you'd also think about me, about us—about coming back together.
I have so much reason to come back to you, but I'd fear I'll lose myself again—I fear I'll be rejected. I love you so much to the point I'll keep my feelings all to myself just so we wouldn't argue, to the point I used to think that maybe the love I give was not enough and that I was the problem.
I miss you more than words could say, more than tears could burst, and more than feelings could express. PLEASE take me back chai.
2026-09-19 10:57:53