mai - sp6 :
I'm trying to find my spark back again and I'm doing some things to do so. Cause I wanna heal, I wanna find sparks in my life again. So I'm doing some stuffs to get it back. I'm not sure whether it will work for others or not but I just thought of sharing what I am doing.. well I try to talk to myself a lot. Like get some alone time without any distractions like alone time for myself. To think. About life, about myself. And I talked with myself for long. like in my head. Smth like why I feel the way I feel what might excite me and even what things I like. I figured out to notice things. Viewing the nature, noticing the nature and talking to myself about them in my head somehow brings a little bit of joy. Not just nature, anything. Noticing somewhat makes me busy. I don't know what I feel but for some reason I don't feel empty. Like for example, While walking through a street I try to notice everything. Like the lamps that stand, the small stores that are selling stuffs, people walking around. Some playing, some begging and some going to work. And I don't just notice things, I make my brain talk abt it. Like lets say I saw the sky. I'll thought to myself, "The clouds are making that shape. It's beautiful. How would it look if it was night?" smth like this. Thinking like this doesn’t automatically makes me happy or full. But it slowly heals me, sometimes by noticing stuffs I catch myself feeling happy or sad. Feel happy enjoying the view or feel sad seeing a person struggling. Also I try to listen to music. Not the ones I usually listen to but rather songs that I used to listen, It gives me a nostalgia vibe that really makes feel like life is worth living. I try to understand the lyrics, what they mean, what it's about. Or I just vibe to it. Orr Sometimes I just go quiet. Like not think abt anything just stare far away and feel the breeze of the wind and enjoy the peace. These stuffs.. for some reason heals me. Very slowly but surely. I'm not sure whether it will work for others or not but I want to share this. Maybe if it helps someone.. that'd be nice
2026-09-25 15:27:12