@proudmom022: September is destroying me. I knew it would hurt. I knew everything about this month would feel different without him. But I was not prepared for how relentlessly bad it would get. Every day I think, surely this is the worst of it. Until tomorrow comes. I’m tired of carrying it. Tired of trying to drag myself through days I don’t particularly want to participate in. I want to disappear from everything for a while. Not from life. I just want to crawl into a dark hole and stay there. Except it already feels like I’m living in one. #childloss #griefandloss #griefjourney