Steve :
Hugs, My beloved male partner and I shared 31 years prior to his passing in 2009. We met in high school me 16 he 18, one date on his family sailboat to Catalina island. I was smitten. We were so sad when we were told and understood our cancer fight wasn't going to end in victory. We held on tight, mostly shared how much we loved each other how truly grateful we were for our time together, he assured me he would never leave me. would be w me rest of my life until my turn to join him. He has been amazingly present in my life. Ive grieved very hard missed him so much, even though I know he is ok, happy, we will be together again in future. He has visited me in my dreams about 6-8 times. I can always tell when I been w him, I can feel him on me, smell him on me and I feel so physically loved by him. I feel "vamped" in a funny humorous way. like he took advantage of me and I loved every second.
he is very affectionate and loving, and I can hear him laughing sometimes, when I did something so silly, by mistake,
and he laughs at me. I will accidently get on wrong train in my daily commute. I am frustrated w myself. He will laugh .
I still get sad miss him in my physical active daily life.
But my dear friends all understand me and my kookie ways . I'm in nursing school at 64 and love my fellow students and professors. I send lots of love to you too. hugs
2026-09-22 21:07:19