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i lost her, and i know its my fault i kept on lying and lying and i would just deny deny deny. i would never communicate properly with her either and i hate the person that i turned out to be i, hate how much i disappointed her for so many months shes been dealing with my lying bs but now that ive lost her and how we dont talk anymore whatsoever im realizing that she gave me so many chances and i gave her so much hope that i would “change” but i would do good then go back to doing the same bs everytime. i hate how i made us lose our sparks, i miss how everything was in the beginning. and honestly shes the type of best friend you would only get once in your life and one you would never want to lose but i already did. you wouldnt want to lose someone like her who would always be genuine, always keep it real, be straightforward to you, someone i can call crying my heart out one random day/night and finish the call dying laughing, someone who has never lied to me, someone who was never fake to me, someone who can be so so kind and really sweet, someone who understands me better than my own family, someone who never and i mean ever tried to treat me differently throughout our friendship. but this is definitely the last time i meet someone like her, someone who i would never get back again, someone who i will keep in my heart forever and until the day that i die. this is how it is for me currently but this is a warning to other people out there reading this right now to change if you can relate. there is still time if they are still giving you chance after chance. dont mess it up. do everything in you power to change and make things better between the two of you, whether your the problem or they are. Just Change. because if not you will most definitely and forever regret it like how i do, you dont realize your losing something good until you actually do, my life feels so empty not having her randomly call me, text me, send me videos, laugh with me, talk with me on some chill stuff, and just basically do everything together i hope that whoever is reading this take this as a sign to do better for that friend of yours before its too late.
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