Bagoholic.np :
I had been consistently affirming, working on my self-concept, persisting in my desired reality, and staying in the state of already having what I wanted. I wasn’t wavering, spiraling, or checking the 3D much. I saw positive changes within myself, relevant signs, and movement too—my message had gone from delivered to seen but i didnt waiver i was affirming
Since yesterday, my emotional state hasn’t been good. After holding everything in for so long, I completely broke down today and cried my heart out for almost 1–2 hours; it’s already 4 AM. I called him before , he didn’t pick up, and I ended up blocking him. Even while breaking down, I kept reminding myself that my emotions don’t manifest and this state doesn’t change my desired reality, but it’s been so hard.
What hurts most is that he’s leaving me on seen , which he never did before, even during our previous no-contact period. I keep replaying our last day together, when everything finally felt okay after so long, and I don’t understand what changed or why it suddenly became no contact again, i understand his difficulties but atill everything was okay suddenly and now It’s been around two months, and I feel confused, hurt, overwhelmed, and unsure what I’m doing.
I’d also already finished the crochet gift he was so excited about that he was also constantly asking abt and that I wanted to give him, and having it while everything is like this makes it hurt even more. Everything just feels unbearably heavy right now.
2026-09-23 22:08:14