@cappybears: Today is the five year anniversary of losing my brother, very tragically, very unexpectedly. I hate grief, but I live with it. I've learned to live with it. I don't really feel the same. I definitely miss the version of me before this grief, but it's sort of hard to pin point what I even miss specifically. I think the biggest change for me has been learning to navigate as an only child now. That's my least favorite part. Navigating my parents and their navigating. I really dont like the pressure of being an only child. I wish I had something more meaningful to say but this is how it goes sometimes lol. I always look forward to this day ending. lol #griefjourney