@ameliasahm03: okay so this one keeps me up at night (literally lol) because i WISH someone had pulled me aside before i left that hospital and been like hey girl. here is what is actually about to happen to you. not the cute stuff. the REAL stuff. because i was SO prepared for labor. i watched every video. i packed the perfect bag. i had the swaddle technique down. and then i got home and it was like. wait. why did nobody tell me about ANY of this 😭 the hormone crash around day 3 almost broke me. i thought something was seriously wrong with me. i was sobbing and i couldn't even explain why. my husband was staring at me like a deer in headlights and i just needed someone to say girl this is NORMAL and it will pass. and the alone feeling?? that one really got me. we had so many visitors that first week. and i still felt like i was on another planet. like everyone around me was in their normal lives and i was floating somewhere outside my body trying to keep this tiny human alive on zero sleep and nobody was really looking at me. they were looking at the baby. the nights were honestly the hardest thing i have ever done. and i say that as someone who had a 19 hour labor lol. because in labor people are cheering for you. at 3am alone in a dark room trying to figure out why your baby wont latch its just you and the silence and your own spiraling thoughts. beacon actually really helped me with that part. its an app that shows you other moms who are awake at that exact moment. and something about knowing there are other women in dark rooms going through the same thing at the same time made me feel so much less crazy. like okay. we're all doing this. we're all surviving it. i'm not alone in this. save this for when you're in the thick of it ok. and if you already brought your baby home and nobody warned you about any of this. first of all i'm sorry. second of all you're doing amazing. third of all it gets better i promise 🤍 #mom #MomsofTikTok #momlife #baby #newborn
