💎rick prime :
'm tired of feeling like I'm always there for everyone, but that when I need someone, silence is the only thing that comes back. Tired of being that person who listens, advises, accompanies, remembers dates, asks how you are even when no one asks about me. Tired of giving huge affection and feeling like it never occupies the same space in the hearts of others.
It hurts to realize you're important, yes, but never enough. That you are “good friend”, “great person”, “someone special”, but never anyone’s favorite. Never the first option. Never that person who are looking for just something good or bad happens in their lives. I always seem to be at an in-between point where everyone wants me, but no one really chooses me.
And the worst part is that one starts to wonder what he has wrong. What's missing. Why does it seem so easy for others to receive that reciprocal love that always eludes me. Because I do know how to want. I'm really worried. I know how to stay. I know to listen even when I'm broke. But sometimes I feel like all that is useless when it never comes back with the same intensity.
It's exhausting to feel like you give versions of yourself that no one else would give for you. See how you make room for everyone while no one seems to make room for you. And yet continue there, because despite grieving, one ends up getting used to being the refuge of others while having nowhere to hide.
Sometimes I'd like to stop worrying so much. Stop responding quickly, being outstanding, trying to be enough for everyone. Because you get tired of feeling that the love you give always weighs less when it comes back. Tired of seeing how people have “their favorite person”, their priority, their safe place... and understand that you have never been that to anyone.
And yes, maybe no one has the obligation to love us as much as we do, but that doesn’t stop it from hurting. Don’t avoid that feeling of emptiness when you realize that probably no one thinks of you with the intensity with which you think of them. That while you guard conversations, moments and details fondly, to others you are just one more person among many.
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2026-09-27 15:49:38