thatfitmmadad :
the hard part is. she holds onto so much from her traumatic issue in her life, when we are together in person, the love is undeniable, the way she touches me, and looks at me, all of it. but then the distance let's her get in her head, and she listens to people she shouldn't, she dwells on the negative what ifs, and shell self sabotage, she is so afraid of confrontation, and runs aways from the real issues in her life, so she'll push away the one thing that is consistent and gives her love and support shes never had, because she knows id never attack her or judge her, and thinks she needs to heal without me, and then realizes that its not our relationship that is the issue, she says she doesn't need anyone and she fine by herself, but its not happiness, its content, all because she wont confront the real issues in her life. its makes me sad, not only because I lose her, but because I know how strong and resilient she could be, but she doesn't see that in herself. shes the sweetest woman in the whole world, and I love her so much, but I cant make her confront the real issues that would heal her
2026-09-29 21:20:51