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I only truly loved someone once in my life, when I was around 18 to 20 years old. So much time has passed since then, but I still have not been able to feel the same way about anyone else. I lost that love, and with it, it feels like I lost a part of myself too.
Now I might marry someone I do not love, although I am not even sure that will happen. I lost my business, ended up millions of rubles in debt, lost the person I used to be, and now I honestly do not know where to go from here. I have no money, no plans, no idea what the future is supposed to look like. My relatives no longer feel like family, and I have almost no friends left. The only people I have are my parents, and they are not getting any younger.
Sometimes I look at everything that has happened and wonder when my life became like this. So much has been lost, and I simply do not know what to do next.
So this is life...
2026-09-29 19:05:27