man drawing :
just to be fr..
every single second that has passed she is the only girl that i cared abt most when nothings wrong,im happy, were not talking,shes sleeping,im dreaming,and times that i made her mad and sad makes me feel so bad,and i just dont give my self to someone if theyre just a waste of time,and she's the only one that i gave all that i was and will be,ive thought of her as a stranger-a friend-a crush-and now not yet my gf but im giving her all i can rn and i want her to be,and i thought that people getting jelous was cringe and a bit stupid but now
..,i know that she loves me and always reasures me but i cant still shake of the feeling that she's just gonna leave me or just choose someone else,i do trust her but its not abt her its abt me being too replace able,being to normal,too insecure,too jelous,too childish,too imature,too much of every thing i hate,the fact is im just enough- if u dont care,handsome if the the rooms light is very dim 30 feet away or if ur blind,perfect if a trash can gold shiny and always smells good no mater what,and its jusy so stupid to me that i think someone who always says that she loves and cares abt me will just be gone or leave,at this point its not even abt her anymore its just me....
2026-09-29 13:56:36