RtzY :
While being in a shitty mental state, I do mot have tunnel vision. Ik someday it'll eventually be better, even if time feels so goddamn slow 1 day is 1 week, 1 week is a month and so on.
I dont remember almost anything, I lost the sense of feeling, I got empathy burnout.
I helped a suicidal guy who was a close friend to me once, he had horrible fantasies with my ex and, his attempts were all for attention. I've gotten so good at masking my feelings that the only time the mask slipped was last year after june (where everything happened). I just lost it at that time. And became distant from everyone, even my gf who I broke up with her for her own good. My trip to europe brought NOTHING. No memories, no feelings. nothing. The worst is, is that I won't seek help, because I, while having those typa thoughts, not gonna do it. My repost on this accounts are done to help me feel anything, even if its bad.
2026-10-06 00:20:16