Yoo brother you don't have to do that. I don't know what terrible things you've been through or how hard things have been, but hurting yourself like that doesn't help at all. Please remember how important your life is; no matter how severe your struggles are, I want you to know that we are born to fight—not to fight for someone else, but to keep going. I hope that one day you realize your life is more important than anything else. Remember this bro I hope your will happy after you read this.