jin • adomin • haine :
I made two letters for her in two different occasions, wrote everything I felt, what made me like her, and moments I thought there was something. When I gave her my letter (pretty much anonymously) in late December I though I might have a chance, only to find out when we went back to school after winter break that there was something going on with her and this guy from our clas that had a crush on her for a hear, I think. I didn't think much of it, maybe it was just a rumour. But as time went by, things got clearer for me, there was something between them. Knowing that I might never have the chance again, I made a letter again to give to her, I timed it perfectly so that I wouldn't have to see her for 5 days (including weekends) cause I knew that I was getting rejected. I left the letter and some gifts in a location and asked her to pick it up, she asked me if it was from me or from the admirer I said gave her the first letter. I said it was from the admirer and she never replied back. The whole I was nervous, I didn't know what she was doing or why she hasn't replied yet. After a gruesome 5 hours of thinking about her, she dm'ed me at 9pm. My heart was beating out of my chest the whole time. She asked me if it's true that I liked her, of course I said yes. The 3 dots kept appearing and reappearing for 5 minutes straight and I just nervously waited for her response. When my phone pinged and I saw her profile, I immediately clicked it and saw her message. Just from the emoji choice she used I knew I was doomed. So yes she rejected me, saying she wanted to focus on her studies which I respect, I am also focusing on my studies. a few months after I got rejected I was still hoping that maybe something will change but it never did. I only really started to try and move on from her a few weeks ago, started by deleting the journal I made containing moments we interacted since we weren't close or anything, her pictures in my phone, changed most things I made because of her, but I engraved her in my life so much these past week years that I haven't fully deatached myself. Now she's acting closer with the guy who liked her too, which I should be glad about but I just feel
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