VanniRam :
Never have I expected this kind of message or post. It broke me, flooded my room with tears. Ngayon ko lang nailabas ung pain ko, after a long period of time, over my frustrations for not getting hired as a public school teacher even an instructor. I prayed for it so hard. I was thinking my family needed much help, so I had to risk things and be a little more brave. I got commended over my skills, they told me i was so rare and even wished for me to get absorbed in the system. I was rank 1, with 98%, thereabouts cumulative score. My friends told me that my chances were high, and so I got naive and impulsive, I resigned from my work as a Private school instructor for years. People believed in what I can do and in whatever I can bring or offer to the table. My apologies for sounding a bit egocentric... Pero Yung tiwala ng mga malalapit sa akin sa kakayang ibiniyaya at ipinagkaloob sa akin ni Lord, sobrang sarap sa ears noong una, pero sobrang sakit pala, it still feels like I failed everyone. Hindi ko pa naachive ung expectations nila sa akin, na makukuha ako agad. Kasi hindi ako nahire, ilang beses akong nareject. Wala akong backer, ang sakit kasi buong puso kong gustong maging guro. Pero siguro, for the mean time, inistrech pa lang ni Lord ung goma ng palsiit o siguro pana ko, lalaban pa rin ako, hindi maaring, walang baklang Sir Ram na magsasabing 'kaya mo at kakayanin mo' sa mga batang napanghihinaan ng loob tulad ko. ✨ Salamat ng marami sa post na ito, at pasensya na rin, ginawa ko na tong journal, pero nakatulong ito para mailabas ko ung sakit, naiiyak ko na after kong kimkimin ng matagal....
2026-10-04 03:36:43