🛡️ Mr.TimothyTimes 🛡️ :
This is gonna be long, mainly because I use the kind of post to do some emotional dumping so I can get it off my chest. Single serving friends kinda thing.. This, I feel, but it’s in everything. I can build and it can crash, and I shrug now. Not because it don’t hurt,but because part of me is just numb now. Part of me, with each fall, stays down a little. So every time I get back up, I have a little less to give. A little less care. It hasn’t just happened with the big things ya know, I notice it with the small things to.. the random “wtf” moments have become dull. My mother died a few years ago and I couldn’t find it.. I tried I tried to find the sadness, it’s there I can feel it every now and then peak out.. Like something’s broken though, a wave of numbness shoves it back. I live my life helping and serving others, always have, I think though that maybe I have given so much I don’t have anything left to give myself? It’s been happening through the years, each fall.. The world breaks around me, us, and no matter I have to smile and carry on..Truth is I just want to crawl away.. I just wanna remeber how to scream? How to cry maybe.. My best friend my #1 in what we do, he died too not to long ago. Rocked everything, numb.. it was focus first, keep going, things needed to be done. Shortly later his wife self deleted. Numb. There kids where the focus, so again I fell. Each time a little less of me gets up. Idk.. I could just keep typing I’m sure. So much in there but again, things to do. So, let me get back up. Until next time random TikTok post..
2026-10-06 14:49:28