Otterpop :
that's the harshest thing about reality, most of never know when we are going and then thr are those that do know and wished we never did know, that happened with my dad, I knew when he was going to pass away, that was the hardest part in my life to do besides what I had to do to my mother when she was on life support, 2 weeks before dad passed away, he told me to call my sister, because he wanted to spend the last moments of his life with her, as they we're getting on the plane, I watched with intensity and memorizing never moments of dad because I knew that was the very last time I had seen dad alive,me and my brother Bobby were watching and I told him remember this is the last time we are seeing dad alive, we were suppose to go to Nikolai to spend more time with d a d, but I knew that was never going to happen, it broke me to keep that secret from my siblings that I knew when dad was going to pass away, 2 days after dad and my sister got on the plane to Nikolai he passed away, we were all struggling hard with mom passing away 8 months before dad, it FUCKING sucks majorly when you are the oldest in the family, a lot of the times I had to make extremely harsh decisions that I knew would ultimately rip my mind apart yet I had no choice in these situations, everyone trained me since I was 4 yrs old what I needed to do when time comes to do it, they raised me up to be a warrior and hunter and protector and provider, but the real reason and this came from my mom, she told me when I was 4 she was training me to be the only 1 to completely step over that very line everyone is scared of crossing, to take a humans life, mom knew dad would never to that again because of Vietnam, like imsaid it really sucks to be the oldest because being the oldest requires you to make some of the hardest choices you'll ever have to make and except
2026-10-07 22:57:45