Melli :
But I don’t want to spend my life surviving when all I’ve ever wanted was to live. And I pray that, one day, life will be a little kinder to me. For months, I’ve been walking out of one hell only to find myself in another, carrying wounds no one sees and fighting battles no one knows about. For months, I’ve felt like I’ve been drowning in the very life I’m trying so desperately to hold on to, searching for air in places that leave me breathless. And God knows how hard I’ve tried to keep going, even on the days when my soul felt too tired to carry me. I keep hoping that somewhere beyond all this pain, there is a softer chapter waiting for me, a place where my heart can finally rest and my mind can finally be quiet. I don’t need a perfect life; I just wish for one that doesn’t hurt so much. I want mornings that feel like beginnings, nights that bring peace instead of overthinking, and a heart that no longer flinches at the thought of what tomorrow might bring. I want to live, not just exist between one heartbreak and the next. I want to feel the sunlight without having to fight through the darkness first. I want to breathe without feeling like the world is sitting on my chest. And after everything I’ve endured, I hope God remembers me in the gentlest way, too. Because I am so tired of being the girl who survives everything. For once, I want to be the girl who finally gets to live.
2026-10-10 09:54:14