Alx.VoL :
she was the person i wanted to share everything with, my knowledge, care, laughter, a bond, even a piece of myself... and so much more. ever since i got seperated from her due to different schools, it hasnt been easy for me, i would always write to her somehow, in a little notebook i keep, letters incase we do meet but go unanswered because of how everytime it does look like we're gonna meet, it becomes another cancelled plan. at the moment i'm typing this she is currently sick, i can do nothing but worry for her. i always have trouble making her feel the love that i show her daily, i worry that this may be the bane of my love for her, and it might lead to something that i wouldnt want to even think about. She wasnt the smartest nor the brightest person in the room, and yet shes the one i noticed the most. I want to continue to keep loving her for as long as i can, people Have called me crazy to love this girl just because she wasnt performing so well in important aspects of her life but i stand above their reasoning, which i am not fond of but for her i will gladly make an exception, the constant doubts and shame i recieved now and then, i hated it so much, but then i saw a pattern in her performances, turns out she hasnt been any different from me, though i can never consider myself an equal to her simply because i would want the person i love above me, in the moment of realization i did, i had seen that she isnt the same lazy person she once was, she was fighting just like me, a different battle on her own, and thats what gave me hope for her, i am proud of that girl so so much, even though ive been massively discarded by her sometimes(or atleast thats what i think) i always cheer her from afar as a way, or maybe even the only way i know as of now, to show my love for her.
2026-10-10 11:30:10