@the.trauma.drama.mama: I was on a billboard in Times Square! I spent years being the person who would have needed every stranger in that crowd to approve of me before I could enjoy a single second of it. The agoraphobic brain doesn’t just fear places. It fears being seen and judged in them. Every opinion turns into a terrifying prediction that your nervous system treats as real, so you keep making your life smaller and smaller to avoid the crowd. Standing under my own face, I felt the old scan start up anyway. Who was watching? Who was judging? Who did I even think I am? That’s the neuroscience of trauma recovery nobody talks about. The voice doesn’t die, you learn to stop letting it drive. So if you’re still auditioning for people who were never going to clap, NO MATTER WHAT, consider this your permission slip and official invitation. Stop auditioning for the approval of people that can’t rise to your level. This is YOUR life and they can have the life they deserve #anxiety #traumarecovery #agoraphobia #cptsd #traumadramamama
