Tom :
overthinking...my reason, myself was the biggest mistake i was going to put, my reasoning for this is i hurt the one person i would have put myself in jail for a lifesentence if anyone hurt her, turns out i was one of those people ill forgive again and again bc I care, but forgiving myself for hurting this girl is a regret ill carry for a long time, not until i can prove to her i can be better i dont have to change the person I am, I feel like she loves me for who I am, theirs no amount of love the world can provide that this girl deserves, toxic relationships, family, no girl deserves this especially this one because in my lifetime of living theirs noone that is like her, do i love her, yes,not words in the dictionary can compare to how much I do, purest heart and the girl who made me cry in disbelief that she accepted me for me, i know im not the best boyfriend atm so i write bc its the best i can do for her until I see her face to face again so i can gaze into the same eyes that made my heart beat so fast, i begged up to the sky before I met her for a lifelong cure for depression and the feeling of being empty and i thank the gods for showing me that loving her was the life i needed because shes not a want, an object or to be used, she deserves more love than she got given, proud even that word isnt good enough for her because theirs no other words i can use to show who she is as a person im proud of that person, toxic โ๏ธ. Id lay my hands infront of her father on my knees if i ever layed a hand on her and beg forgiveness even then it wouldnt be enough, making her feel safe and wanted, but mainly to show her the love she always deserved and until ive done that is when ill forgive myself, so when i lift my hand she doesnt flinch even if ive never hit her knowing shes gone through abuse like that breaks me, however long this takes to type theirs not enough time in the world to list every reason she is my world and has more worth than anyone could ever compare to, yes my ego is big but out of worth i couldnt put myself close to hers because to me shes priceless, cant be bought, because theirs no amount of money in this or any other world that can afford her.
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