SlpZ :
💯 yeah ....finally realizing that I'm done. I rather be alone in life than with someone that constantly disrespected me, and couldn't even accept that fact, zero accountability. yeah I made mistakes too, always tried to work on them and do better, but in the end for what. I lost my sense of humor, I lost the joy of my hobbies, and I lost my self respect. Hell, I finally realized that even though I made certain mistakes (joked too much, hid feelings and hard convos alot), I did more than 99% of guys would. To stick with someone healing from so hard previous trauma, forgive so much, sacrafice so much money....time....and effort just to show her she was worth it, not jist somebody to fk......I saw her trauma and uncomfortability which is why I put my own needs aside and took it so slow for I could never hurt or use her. And yet, that's exactly what she did to me and then ran to guys that did use her. Damn......I don't know which hurt worse....knowing she never loved me or knowing she is chasing chaos for that is all she ever knew. 💔 But, in the end, im finally realizing I was just a chapter that was safe, but not wanted or loved by her. At least her family truly appreciated me. And that makes me feel so much better. They saw I did alot that I really didn't need need to and most guys, friends or more wouldn't have. But I do believe for a time she did need that, needed someone that would help get thorough some very tough times, even if just tossed aside after. It is what it is. I just hope I can find that person in myself again, for I currently don't ever want to do that much for anyone new ever again, and that's a horrible feeling. and it's also completely unfair to the next person if it ever happens (which I doubt but who knows). Dang, it really seems good or decent people are rare, a world full of users, manipulators, and people treating others like swipeable options. It's an all about "me" culture. Lonliness sux, but this toxic new age society and thinking sux even more. I'm not saying I'm perfect but I really have always tried to be good, understanding, and supportive, but it just lets every female friendzone you or use you.
2026-10-13 14:52:56