@keeper_of_sunflowers: To those who understand, I see you, I understand you. People often think OCD is about being clean and neat, and it is FAR from it. We WISHED that was what it was. Rumination. Intrusive thoughts. We struggle DAILY. The thoughts that consistently loop inside our minds are a struggle. If I hadn't got the minimum help I needed, I promise you that I wouldn't be here today typing this message. OCD is quirky or just compulsively clean, it's a nightmare we have to exist with.