. . . no matter what im never finding true love happiness and peace heavy on the love part. like shit i try so hard and im just used for my body and attention and shit like ok..? everyone loses feelings for me within a day and it hurts. it really does. i try to do my best at everything. everyday. im a good person, or atleast i try to be. why cant i get a moment of peace withour depress and stress? i can never be happy. the pills arent working, i dont knoow what to do. nothing works for me in terms of happiness. something always goes wrong. maybe hanging out with my friend(s) helps. temporarily. i feel so terrible, because, i try to be kind. though i just get upset and irritated at nothing because im so done. im so tired. of everything. the depression eats me alive. it only ever gets worse. why even bother pushing in such a state? i hate feeling like this. its exhausting, truly. for myself and likely everybody around me. i barely have any friends, though. i struggle. im introverted and unlikeable. sometimes i struggle to just be a human. i look at others and wonder - why not me too? i wish, i truly do wish, everything could just be pure and simple. just once atleast. atleast let me find true love. ive lost everybody. everything. goodbye. #kpopedit #viral #soobin #txtmoa #giftok - @swansbin