@iamdoodleee: something that has been unsettling the past few days as yesterday hit two weeks of baby passing is the negative comments. No one understand my pain. Even if someone’s been threw the same exact thing spot on from the CDH to Nicu to whatever it is I dealt with. Everyone is different. Everyone stories different and every process is different. Comparing doesn’t heal, gives support yes. But definitely hard because it’s not something any of us want to deal with. The one peace I have is knowing my son healed so many people including his mama the only downfall is him not physically being here and it kills my heart to where I’m not able to look at pictures for a long period of time for the past week now. my son has brought family together, families back to church and relationships together. He’s a healer and his story will forever live on and I’ll make sure of that. For the people who try to bully us during this time, I would never wish this on anyone even though you all seem to think this is so easy because I am so positive because that’s all I knew for a year to fight for my son. I never had a negative bone in my body when it came to my baby boy. . . I had no choice and my brain was trained to be positive in hard situations to where I get numb of negativity. My husband and I chose to move into a home to get away from the place we’ve been living for 3 years because of all the trauma we’ve faced and we want to have a fresh slate to be closer to our baby boy. Something we’ve always wanted but we have to instead be at a grave site unfortunately 💔. . . Which I’ll take over anything since it’s all I’m able to have. . My son is in a better place than all of us on earth, heaven. he’s at peace and with Jesus somewhere I will praise to be and stay on my feet to make sure I am to be with my baby again… So again, this isn’t easy. So the negative comments of us learning how to cope and grieve and restore feelings that were damaged is taking a toll and time on us that we DO NOT show to people on the internet as we have our own personal life that no one deserves to see but us. Our protection is the love we have for each other (our lives) .. our son is our world. We’re damaged and hurt so deeply and we share those emotions together while holding each other. My business, pens and everything in general is my coping. It’s something I learned to love because it helps my mind and is a distraction from my mind and real life feelings. And one last thing for everyone who tore us down for making a list for our new home ( closed mouths don’t get fed ) I have support and I give support back to whom does it for my family . My child has nothing to do with what I do and is no reason we made the list ! We got asked, I’m an adult and have been supporting myself since being on my own at 13 and my sons a newborn who caught his wings way to early. . . I’m his voice and was for a year. Not the internet and surely not bullies who aren’t making us feel any better while we’re in pain that we don’t show on the outside. God bless, this isn’t easy. I’m hurting. I’m truly destroyed and I don’t show it. . I did so much of this on my own for months because I was the only one who understood every cord, medication, procedure, surgery .. etc. I was his voice and I taught so many others about his story. I’ll keep going for my son. He’s all I ever wanted. He’s all I crave. He brought me a joy I always craved to have 💔😭🙏🏼.

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