@hermione_john: I am beyond blessed to have a healthy happy girl now but I don’t think it will ever sit right with me that I wasn’t the first to hold her, feed her or comfort her. Watching someone who’s been apart of you for 9 months be carried out of sight will never not be soul destroying. No one should have to watch their baby be carried away instead of placed on their chest like they have been dreaming of. The world truly can be cruel. #birth #labour #childbirth #nicu #sepsis