jjameess :
he rather be cheated on, manipulated and emotionally abused just because it’s safe and familiar. All I asked for was communication. But all I was met with was love bombing and half bAss gestures. And when I’d voice my opinions and frustration on certain things he would do. I would be called crazy, or I’m being TOO MUCH. When all I was trying to do was tell him what or why I was hurting.. so yes, I basically “built a bear” and picked up the piece of their doomed relationship and gave him the proper love, support and respect he YEARNED so much for with this “ex”. Just to have one final exchange, and get cut off without a clue or explanation on why. So I’m left here lost and stuck in a loop as to what I did wrong to begin with? Or if I was there for the attention, but regardless of that. Yes it’s a pretty messed up situation and I still cry about it everyday, bc I thought shat we were building was amazing. (This is directly to you sir)> YES, I me loving you was scary and frightening because you’ve never experienced that type of attention, and love. With your ex or family. And I just wanted to show you what it’s like to be loved without having to exchange anything in return such as gifts, money or the DEED. I loved you as yourself not the little boy you portrayed yourself. We may have had little time together but I hope the love, joy and peace I brought you. Helped heal something in you someone else broke. Just know healing you broke me in millions of ways you didn’t realize. Yeah I text and text and called hundreds of times just to get left on seen or delivered. I tried, and tried and TRIED countless times just to prove my worth to you. And you were to selfish and cruel, to even acknowledge my efforts. Like broooo I was willing to put my own happiness aside just to see you experience that. Even when I’m not in the best mental or emotional state. But no, I have to bite the bullet and accept things for what it is. And I hope that when you’re with homeboy (ex) that you thank me. Thank me for helping rebuild you emotionally and mentally, for a little boy that doesn’t deserve you in the slightest. You wanted more but settled for less
2026-10-16 07:48:55