@xobubsmetal624ox: really starting to get the feeling I'm just being strung along by everyone been in this game for 30 plus years and outta 2026 I am no more further with relationships be it personal or romantically since November of last year plus people can tell you while I may not be a quitter I am in fact a gambling man and after a year I got to play this hand just right cause I'm tired of chasing I'm tired of begging I'm tired of giving full effort and not getting it back I hate people who can't pick up a phone and call or text me like what the fuck do I need a phone for if ain't nobody hitting up my fucking number my girl don't do it my besties don't do it hell my brother and sister don't even do it so why have a phone hell like why do I take back seats to other morjeg fuckers like make it clear if you want me or not I'm not gonna be fighting for a spot from any other mofo cause if I mattered I would need to compete plus I've done lost everything anyway so something needs to give cause I deserve better that to be optional I get tired of everyone telling me oh your a great guy but l... Im not ready or I'm not interested in dating anyone (code for at least not dating a guy like me) but again nice finishes last being an asshole never worked for me so WTAF like some people move on quickly from one relationship to the next as it's happened to me where it takes me months or years to rebound and yet some people move on like speed dating but starting to think 26 years in this game maybe I ain't ever gonna get that locked in relationship maybe a pipe dream but until then... I gotta play this hand but make no mistakes with it don't get lost in the sauce if I no longer feel beneficial or valued I walk no explanation no sympathy I'm tired of waiting and waiting for shit and expecting the kinda shit I have to offer amd nobody else does like this ain't one sided here I know my worth question is am I worth it to anyone else and here lately if I ain't got money then the answer is nope my time and efforts dont mean shit my plans I made dont matter and I have to take a back seat for someone else to do what I wanted to do but I guess my words and feeling and yearnings and desires don't mean shit huh....
