@audioillusions3: I did decide tho that I’m not doing this again lol like no way. This avoidant ass mf has turned something in me that made me feel so cold that I don’t want to engage in another human again. I gave him so much of myself and for him to do me like this and drop me like nothing? I can’t. Even my therapist has heard this. I can’t. I don’t want anything else. My walls are so high. My therapist said if he wanted to reach out he would and clearly he hasn’t and honestly fine then. But no one else is going to get in because it’s not worth the depletion.