Sometimes I feel like I’m not even the right person to say anything that would make you believe me, because honestly, everything that has happened has left me feeling broken in ways I can hardly explain. It has been so much pain for my heart, and the hardest part is that I’ve reached a point where I don’t even trust myself anymore. I gave so much of my hope and trust to people, believing that some things were real, only to end up hurting in ways I never imagined. And till today, I still wish I could go back and change some things, because if I had known what I know now, maybe I would have made different decisions. Sometimes I even find myself wondering if the things I did in my past are somehow connected to the suffering I’m going through today. Being here in the hospital, dealing with this cancer and everything that comes with it, has given me so much time to think about my life, my mistakes, and the things I wish I could undo. I know not everything that happens to us is because of something we did wrong, but when you’re hurting, your mind can take you to places you never thought you would go. The truth is, many of us walk through life thinking we have everything figured out, until the people we love leave us or the ones we trusted show us a different side of themselves. And when that happens, you start questioning everything, even yourself. Sometimes I wish I had someone I could sit with and honestly share everything on my mind without having to pretend that I’m okay. Someone who would listen without judging me or making me feel like my feelings don’t matter. Sincerely, I’m tired of pretending that love and trust are easy things for me anymore. I want to believe in people, but a part of me is always afraid of getting hurt again. Sometimes my head feels so heavy from thinking about everything, and even here in the hospital, I find myself holding back tears that I can’t always explain. These lonely days have taught me a lot about life, but they have also shown me how difficult it can be when you have so much on your mind and no one you feel comfortable sharing it with. If you ever genuinely want to check on me or talk to me, you can reach me directly here on Zangi: 8334278012 or Telegram: @LeeDongMin076. Sometimes, a simple conversation or knowing that someone truly cares can mean more than people realize. Maybe one day, all these mistakes, pains, and experiences will become nothing more than a chapter in my life, something I can look back on and write about, perhaps even turn into a novel with my name on the cover. And maybe I’ll finally be able to put everything I’m feeling into music, the way I’ve always tried to do whenever I’m alone with my thoughts. For now, I’m just trying to find the strength to get through each day, to understand myself again, and to find some peace in the middle of everything I’m facing. I don’t have all the answers, and I won’t pretend that I do. I just wish the days didn’t feel so lonely and that, for once, I could let my heart speak without being afraid of what comes next.#sadness #pain #sick #heartbreaking #facts - @artist_0760