@audioillusions3: I’m rejecting people who ask me out because I don’t have the emotional capacity to entertain anything else right now. I’m so drained and void of any emotion. Even when I’m out with friends I’m constantly thinking of the one person who made me feel like something and looking at my phone, wondering if they’ll text. Though I’m a fool because I’m blocked on everything and there’s not a chance I will be unblocked. Someone as stubborn as that and prideful won’t back down. I’m just adjusting to a new reality. I poured my heart out over and over only to be rejected thousands of times. I feel so stupid and embarrassed. I never want someone to have that part of me again. It’s embarrassing