@_super3xg_: Ts genuinely haunts me #Firstlove #imissyou #imsorry #relatable Dear #Allie I know u won’t ever read this and I know me posting about this is really stupid but this is js things that have been on my mind for the past year that we stopped talking and cut ties words can’t explain the feelings I feel about this subject and words can’t even explain how sorry I am for what I had done to u I ruined our whole relationship from the start and all the way to the end and I was js so immature for what I did in the beginning and even when I tried to fix what we had it seemed to go pretty good but along the way it js started to go down hill again and again and again and again and it seemed like whatever I did js wouldn’t fix anything and everytime I tried explaining myself it would make things even worse that summer was something special but at the same time it was so draining to know I was slowly losing u day by day and I js couldn’t let go cause I didn’t wanna make the same mistake I made at first but little did I know it was js digging a deeper hole and I js wanna let u know I’m so so so so so so so so fucking sorry of how much of an idiot I was to u I hate that I made u feel these ways and js kept hurting u no matter what I tried and I know u probably hate me now and think im evil and I don’t blame u but I js want u to know im not that same stupid person anymore and everything I did has really shaped the person I am today and it hurts me to know that u will never know how much I have changed and u will always think of me as a monster in ur life and I js can’t take that thought out of my head no matter what I do u always pop up in my mind and it’s like a curse was spelled on me I can’t seem to find the same connection I found with u in others but now ur in a happy relationship with someone else and im happy for u because ur happy and ur where u want to be which is why I don’t reach out to u even when I really want to because I don’t wanna disturb ur peace that u are in and I want u to continue to be happy and I js wish u luck on the rest of ur life and pray to God to protect u and to watch over u and to allow u to continue to thrive
