𝓜𝓤𝓢𝓔🩸 :
I’m 22 years old now,I’m 5’4…and I don’t have any friends anymore,I’ve had maybe 2 real girlfriends in the past that I barely count as real relationships….all throughout highschool I never experienced this and I never even went to college to experience this, I remember one girl asking me to hoco as a joke freshman year,she was dared to…that’s what kind of loser I’ve always been and that’s the same type of loser I am now….in the last 4 years I’ve done nothing but waste my life trying to find myself,trying to figure out who I am and what I want and I still can’t figure it out,I failed….I’ve done nothing for these last 4 years but the same repetitive routine of going to work at a job I hate and coming home every night to stay up and be alone…I’m so alone all the time, I’ve been wasting my life and now I’m at a point of no return where I’m too late for anything….all those people I went to school with and I grew up around at my original highschool I got expelled out of that I didn’t graduate with,they didn’t just gradually forget about me after highschool, I never even graduated with all those people,I graduated at another school without people I know because I got expelled from my original highschool….I’ve failed so much in my life-socially,academically,athletically….in every way I’ve failed in my life now I’m just nobody….I can’t reach out to my friends anymore because the shame of who I am now…I don’t even want them to see me anymore,and not like they have reached out themselves I’m forgotten about…..all those people have moved on without me in life,they all graduated from college THIS year,most of them are moving into very professional successful careers,a lot of them are seemingly getting married,a lot of them are even fucking to have children……and do these people deserve ANY of it with the people they were in highschool? With how those people treated me?? No they don’t fucking deserve it….but here I am living my shitty miserable life alone while they get to go on and live their happy fucking lives….its unfair🥀 I never had a chance…
2026-10-25 17:13:30