elowyn :
WE BROKE UP AND HE AVOIDED ME EVER SINCE. BUT I KEPT CHASING, AND I'M STILL CHASING TILL NOW... IT'S BEEN ALMOST TWO MONTHS:))
if he could just let me talk to h once without him pushing me away or ignoring me... telling me I'm annoying and that I should leave him alone... I would've said to him that
Haiiii yannnieeeee!!!! happy late birthday, I'm sorry for not greeting you exactly at your birthday.. as if you'll care about it, but I care. your birthday gift is still here at the corner of my room, in a blue box. filled with candies, cookies you loved, also with letters, scrapbooks, poems, and nemophilas flowers I did by handmade. I wonder what to do with it... so I just let it be here with me, as it's the only thing I could grasp that reminds me of you, my love.
we could've fixed it, but you gave up because you got tired... didn't I say you can always run to me when things get hard? that if you get tired tell me and I'll help you? maybe you did say it to me in silence. by just letting me cry in front of you without you softening even a bit and the way you just shove me aside. I've noticed it, yannie.. how you slowly start to see me as the distraction and a waste of your time, while I never saw you as one. I begged you when you broke up with me again and again... and the time I begged into your house, you told me to shut up because they'll hear me.. I'm sorry for being loud that time, I couldn't control my tears and shaking voice. when we cooled off, all I did was think of you and did your birthday gift because I thought we'd be fixed...i didn't know you're planning on leaving me when my plan is to fix us.
it made me think again if you really loved me, because the next day after you broke up with me... you've moved on faster than the sharp knife cutting into my heart. you look so happier, free, and at peace... while I'm in thunderstorm, filled with tears all day. dreams about you, thoughts all about you.. and my heart still choosing you.
Btw, I'm so proud of you for having an award excellence!!
how I yearn for you to comeback, even though you already said you won't.
2026-10-25 04:20:09