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pharmacy never hurt me nun but then the ER psychiatrist/ nurses really just be sedating me without a clear crisis plan for my mental stability, genuinely still looking for a place that understands that somedays I need more guidance on my mental health workers part, only so much I can do. I wish I knew when the mental health workers are going to more than just hear me vent. ugh sometimes I need to be brought out of that, but pharmacy I've never had an issue with usually always calm there. It's just frustrating on the mental health supports in Canada especially are not being funded properly, & the workers have yet to have given me a formal letter of recommendation from my current removal because yes I do have anger issues but genuine question how can I better advocate for myself anyway in the health field as I truly need more advice I only grew up around angry people & my workers won't even get me to anger management instead they just said I'm non compliant when I'm agreeing to anger management, etc. I need help managing this anger which is why I don't call anyone because there's no space to get things done in the midst of my own anger. I 100% needed guidance & support but I'm unsure of how else I can communicate I start of kind, & nice but eventually I snap because I've been bending over backwards educating those on Residential Schools, 60s Scoop the realities of intergenerational trauma. I'm just so exhausted, I feel just the same as these workers I was in the shelter hearing people vent etc. just I get it, but what else can I do when no one is absolutely listening to me until I scream (I don't want to but it's the only time they listen to me, but then they end up scared)... how does one try to communicate this when I'm super frustrated I'm trying so hard. even now over communicating cause I need help. I'm scared of the help now because of the sedation, I want to feel alert & know what they're doing to me I have no family or friends there either it's just me. (Totally different topic but it brought a question of mine as to how I can better advocate for myself when no one else is around, I keep trying so hard, I feel at a loss.)
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