@the.diary.of.moon: So I was thinking about my own circumstances and outlooks about life and I came across the idea “is sadness a state of being” and I mean in the sense that something nice could happen and you’d be happy in the moment but your default state of being is just sad. I feel like I’ll enjoy things ever so temporarily until I end up back to where I woke up that morning…Sad. Trying to find meaning in a life that feels pointless is a struggle,but they say “nothing that comes easy is worth it.” So I suppose I shall struggle for that better life. Thank you for taking the time to read and listen to my thoughts.