fightingchamp :
I have wrestled with the matter through many a sleepless night, and if is with profound regrets that I find myself unable to undertake this responsibility, for I have discovered within myself a weakness I had long sought to conceal .My hands tremble,my resolve falters,and much as I would desire to comply my abilities are insufficient for so grave a deed. Where to begin, for my faculties have been exhausted by perpetual toil, and incessant application had so stripped me of vitality that I am scarcely requisite for the smallest effort. It is with a sorrow so settled, and so little disposed to be dislodged ,that I carry myself through my ordinary engagements with a steadiness other mistake for contentment and it is with the deepest regret, and with a desolation I cannot bring to reason,that I address you at an hour not of my choosing, for I am constrained to confess that your absence has altered the whole tenor of my life, and, harder still to endure,i am forced to acknowledge that, beneath all the discipline with which i have governed my conduct the restraint with which i have guarded my speech and the pride with which I have concealed the poverty of my spirits,i weaken,i wonder, i falter and, yet i remain unchanged to the eye, while the inward order of my life overthrown beyond all remedy.
2026-10-27 14:37:00