✨woobee🐝 :
I finally understand why Varkas has always made me feel uneasy. I'm used to seeing male leads who would do anything to protect the women they love, even if it means putting everything else aside for them. Since I initially believed that Varkas loved Thalia, I expected him to do the same. But he doesn't.
Yes, he saves Thalia whenever she's in danger, but only after she's already been hurt, broken, and pushed to her limits. And what's even worse is that he is always too late because Thalia is never his first priority. No matter how much people insist that Varkas has no feelings for Alya, his actions tell a different story. If both Thalia and Alya are in danger, he will always save Alya first.
Honestly, I think that hurts even more than being rejected by someone you love. Rejection gives you a reason to let go, but Varkas keeps giving Thalia hope that he will be there for her, only to remind her through his actions that she will never be his first choice. He gives her just enough hope to keep holding on, but never enough to make her feel truly chosen.
This is what I mean by kindness that hurts. To everyone else, Varkas seems like a good person because he keeps saving Thalia. But what people fail to understand is that his kindness can also be the very thing that prolongs her suffering. What good is being saved if you are always the last person someone chooses to save?
Honestly, if Varkas cannot put Thalia first, I would rather he stop saving her altogether. Not because I want her to suffer, but because I want her to stop holding on to someone who will never choose her first. Perhaps if he stopped giving her hope, she could finally accept that there is nothing left for her to hold on to and find a way to free herself from this endless suffering.
Because sometimes, being saved by someone who will never choose you can hurt far more than being abandoned by them completely.
The cruelest kind of kindness is the kind that gives you just enough hope to keep holding on, while constantly reminding you that you will never be the one they choose first.
2026-10-28 09:45:53