🦝 :
i just opened this acc, no i will not leave u naman, pero ik it :) it just hurts sometimes to think na we're not the same anymore and deep down, ik that ur feelings have already faded idk, ayaw ko na madala sa kakaoverthink ko kase siguro this time tama na noh? i tried my best even though deep down, alam kong i deserve better pero i still chose to understand u at first, ang sakit talaga. parang every time na nakikita kita or anything about ur socmed presence, it still stings. i still feel sad sometimes kase namimiss ko yung dating tayo yung dating ikaw pero ganon siguro talaga, not everyone is meant to stay forever and maybe we're just a part of each other's journey.
sana mag-heal na ako fully, kahit paunti-unti kase ang hirap din naman ng situation mo and i've always tried to understand that. pero this time, sana mahanap ko naman yung peace na matagal ko nang hinahanap sana magawa ko na yung mga bagay na gusto ko without constantly feeling stressed or letting my thoughts consume me. goodluck sa'yo di ko isesend to habaha linalabas ko lang and maybe that's better kase honestly, i'm tired na rin deep down, i think i've always known, pero siguro it takes time talaga bago matanggap ng puso mo yung mga bagay na matagal nang alam ng isip mo. i can say na medyo naghe-heal naman na ako and i'm proud of myself for that kahit mabagal. i just hope na one day, mahanap ko ulit yung dating ako yung masayahin na ako yung hindi na kailangang mag-overthink sa bawat little thing just to understand where she stands in someone's life. i don't have any hate towards u, maybe just a little sadness kase i never expected na magbabago ka nang ganito towards me. it shocked me and siguro that's one of the hardest parts to accept not just losing what we had, but slowly realizing na the person i once felt so comfortable with isn't the same person i experience anymore.
but despite everything, masaya pa din ako na nakilala kita wala akong pinagsisisihan i hope life gets kinder to u and i hope things get better for both of us. maybe someday, when everything doesn't hurt as much anymore, i'll be able to look back at everything without feeling that heaviness in my chest.
for now, i'll just
2026-10-28 13:28:22