Homeless Triple BP :
I remember a girl has told me, "thank you for standing by my side when I had problems, but I can't take it, when you have problems.", before leaving me. - Before then contacting me, and trying to hang out again, many times, after weeks, or months, after leaving me with those words. Well, I,occasionally, met with her, and hanged out, talked a bit again, but didn't agree to all she wanted to do, and get myself too invested again. - Thought, if it ended like that, it prolly just shouldn't be. For about a year I still wondered, if my decision to not get too close, and do too much together again, when she came back, seeking more contact again, after quitting like that, before,...was the right choice. - Or in other words, how friends I talked bout this with, back then, described it: "He cried after her for a year.". I've also left girls for other reasons, while it broke my heart. One, idk, if that before influenced my decision, but when I had even more problems, than back then, situatively, to not make my problems the problems of a girl, ..which didn't even wanna leave me in that situation. I didn't wanna bother her with my problems, thought, to somewhat protect her by leaving her, trying to not messher up with what messes me up. But who knows, maybe she'd have helped me get back up quicker, or some. Will never be able to find out, but now, I think, ...to leave her was dumber of me, than to not allow to get too close again, with the other one, which left me, when I had problems,before. 🤔 Anyways,both those "stories" are years old,by now. Reading this, ...was maybe the first time this year even, ...I thought bout that, and those again. And by now I miss noone no more, even thinking bout it, doesn't feel,like it used to no more. - It's like ..., just stories by now, though. 🤷 - As if from a different life, ...even while ..from this life, but...doesn't feel so connected no more, or some. Idk, feels more neutral, now, like..., like when listening to someone else's story, even while it's my own, still, somehow. 😀
2026-10-27 23:17:57