@youmeusalways: i used to have a pinterest board for my wedding. three hundred pins. the dress, the flowers, the color scheme, even what my nieces would wear. i'd add to it on sunday nights like a little ritual. after him, i couldn't even look at it. i deleted the whole board in one click. two years of planning a future with someone who was lying to me the whole time. i told my sister i was done with love completely, and i meant it. i still mostly mean it. right now, the only thing i'm planning is my own life. i'm going back to school. i'm traveling with my friends in august. i'm learning to like my own company. maybe one day i'll want that dress again. but for now, i'm building something that can't be taken from me.