Alterego :
Is that call “ financial independence “ ? All my life after graduate from high school, is a “debt”. Ever since I was growing up, I was constantly made to feel that way, day after day. It became so deeply ingrained in me that I grew up carrying guilt and feeling like I owed them forever. Until now if i have money, or time, everything that i got by my self or “hak waris” i have to give that to my family first. But its oke for me, even It keeps me sane, keeps my demons at bay, and stops me from losing myself. And as long i still alive, i will do that. Gue tau itu salah and i know its not my responsibility, but i have Faith and Allah, and its more more enough for me than money. Naive ? Ya. It takes unseen pain and endless battles within myself just to make peace with what hurts me most. Maybe this is my fate, and InshaAllah, I’ll find the strength to accept it wholeheartedly. But yeaaa it will be oke someday.
2026-10-31 18:15:47