@everybodylaughsandtalks: hey, i know you have me blocked. i’m not sending you this. it’s been a while since ive heard your voice. i miss you and i hope you know till this day im still waiting for you. i know it’s about to be an year in a couple of weeks. but im willing to wait for the girl that i love. yk thats you. at school i dont mean to just avoid you like nothing. and with that contract it’s not like i could even do anything. i know it counts in social media too. and i apologize for messing the contract up almost everyday. you’re still the only one that has my heart. it’ll forever be yours i promise. now i don’t expect you to read this, but if you do please reach out. talk to me about bulls eye. i know you love him. ydk the joy it gives me whenever you talk about something you have interest in. and that’s something i’d always tell you. i haven’t fallen asleep on the phone with you for almost an year. writing this makes me realize im kinda doing life without you. see, i’ve accomplished things im hoping you’d be proud of. and knowing you i know you’ve accomplished so many things too. you’re honestly someone i couldn’t ever give up on. you’re all i’ve wanted. i want you to know that i really do love you. and i don’t mind waiting. but if you ever, ever find someone else please let me know. even if it hurts just tell me. i won’t get upset or anything cause ik it’s been an year and you derserve happiness too. #foryou

𝒥𝒶𝓎𝓃𝒾𝑒 𝑀𝒶𝓇𝒾𝑒 :

Dear Cesar Its been such a long time without you. I don’t feel like my self and I haven’t for a very long time. Ever since you left i’ve had a very deep pain that hurts all the time but hurts more at certain times like right now at 1:21 am I don’t know what it is that causes this pain but I’ve felt it since the night you left. I really miss you and I say it with sincerity, your all i’ve known and your all I had, now I don’t know and your gone. It hurts so much given the history I have had with you, you were everything to me and you still are. There’s not a day that goes by to where I don’t think about you. Matter a fact i’m always thinking about you. Nothing I do can ever change my thoughts about you, you’re always there. I miss you so much even when i’m not supposed to. You’re my last thought before going to bed and my first when I wake up. You come out in my dreams and it hurts so much to only have you temporarily. I look for you everywhere I go or and I look for you in everyone. I hate the way my life is without you i’ve literally hit my lowest point. I really don’t think that i’ve been this low mentally, physically, and emotionally. I hate to say that you were really my only motivation in life. When you’re gone I feel like a burden to society. I really need you in my life again. I miss having my someone that someone was always you and was always going to be you. I would never wish that my someone was anyone else I want it to always be you. All my memories with you they hurt me and I yearn for them but I cherish them I really do.