@lilmissmirabella: We barely made it there but I said F it. On the way back, I could see him struggling, unable to continue. So as I promised him, I took off my hoodie and strapped him with the arms around us like a forward backpack and carried him like a child. It sucked so bad. And he put his head on my shoulder like he did the day we met. It broke me. There I was walking with the 50lb weight on my chest, alone. It was so quiet all you could hear was my little crying. I been holding onto all the loss I could this year, I had enough of holding on. I act tougher than I am, because I have to. No one is coming to save me. All I have left is right here 🖤 #Hiking #Outdoors #hikingadventures #fallaesthetic #fuckcancer