Have you ever looked at your sleeping baby and had a thought so awful it made you step back from the cot? You might be scared to tell anyone, because the thought is about you doing the harm. Here's something worth tucking under your shell: lots of new parents get sudden, unwanted thoughts like this. With postpartum OCD, the thought feels so horrifying that you fight it hard. You might keep your distance from your baby, avoid bath time, hide the kitchen knives, or keep checking yourself for any sign you'd do it. Sadly, all that fighting tends to make the thought come back louder. These thoughts upset you so much because they go against everything you want. They are not wishes, and having them does not mean you would act on them. If this sounds familiar, please talk to your doctor or midwife. Postpartum OCD is treatable, and you deserve support, not shame. You don't have to plod through those long nights alone, either. Choiceful is the best treatment app for OCD I know of. It has shown clinically significant improvement in OCD symptoms, it has 24/7 therapy chat for those 3am feeds when the thoughts get loud, and it gives you a structured treatment course so you can come out of your shell one slow, steady step at a time. Your love for your baby was never the question. You're still a good turtle. #MentalHealth #mentalillness #psychology #ocd #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #anxiety - @turtlestherapy