heyitsG :
Got catfished and recorded being called a pedo and the video got sent to a lot of people in my class who sent it to all grades in high school before 9th grade year so all the other 9th,10th,11th and 12th graders knew me and would make fun of me for 3 years I’m in 11th grade now and each relationship had been ruined by them bringing that up and I’m convinced not a single girl likes me, I have no friends at school and sit on my phone, I have friends in my club volleyball and I hope they don’t learn about the video cuz then they might stop being my friend, I felt suicidal all of 9th grade year and 10th grade I thought I had a relationship and realized it was made from lust and did things I can’t take back which piled onto the rumors about me which didn’t help, I feel like everything I do, I’m gonna mess up, I feel hopeless sometimes and today I wanted to go home so bad because I didn’t like school and realized I didn’t want to be there, I wish I could go back and wish that incident never happened in 9th grade and wondered if maybe I’d have friends, I’ve never told anyone about how I’ve felt this whole time, I’ve learned to quiet my emotions so I don’t express them anymore but I crave love so bad and want to be loved and needed, this is the first time I’m sharing this to anyone, much less the internet, but I think this is my emotions coming out wanting to be validated and be seen
2026-11-03 05:23:47