@closetome.moments: i'd been rehearsing it for days. on the drive home from his friend's party, after he'd spent the whole night ignoring me, i finally said it. "you don't make me feel wanted." he didn't even look away from the road. "if i didn't want you i wouldn't be with you rn." then he turned up the radio. i looked out the window feeling so small. to him, staying was the same as wanting. like not leaving was a gift i should thank him for. but i didn't want someone who just stayed. i wanted someone who reached for me. who noticed me in a room. who texted me for no reason. i left two months later. that car ride was the beginning of the end.